heard a song on the radio that transported you back in time? That happened to me yesterday. The girls and I were driving home from dance and a song came on that took me back 20 years. It brought back memories of first love and how 15 year olds view forever. I laughed and cried at the same time as the emotions and memories took over. It just felt good. Know what I mean?
Of course, the girls thought I was nuts, so I tried to explain it to them. But how can you really explain to pre-teens what first love feels like? Or how definite things can seem at 15? Or how happy memories can make you laugh and cry at the same time? I think I just confused them more!
This particular song took me back to a time when I was sure that I would love that boy forever! I loved his family, and they loved me. It was a time when I had found a place with unconditional love, which is what I needed since I lived in a home full of conditional love. It was a time when I just knew things would never change...but, they did. This song defines 4 years of my life. Four great years...there were sad times and the end wasn't easy, but they were still great years.
They say you never forget your first love, and I think that's true. Not that I still want to be with him, but that he taught me what love was supposed to feel like. He taught me how to love without limits and without conditions. He taught me that it's okay to give your heart to someone.....and trust them to take care of it. And he taught me that sometimes you have to move on.
So, today I hope that he is living out his "Rocking Years" with someone who loves him the way he deserves. And I am thankful to be living my "Rocking Years" with a man who loves me more than anything.
